I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE THIS WORLD!!

WHY MUST EVERYTHING BE SO SCREWED UP?!

WHY MUST I ALWAYS GO THROUGH THIS?!

WHY MUST PEOPLE HATE PEOPLE?!

IS IT SO HARD TO ASK FOR PEACE?!

IS IT SO HARD TO WANNA JUST LEAVE?!

I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE THIS WORLD.....


maybe i should just leave this scene and be remembered for what i've done? or not...

back to dance instead?

lol. not gd gd.... procrastination has kicked in yet AGAIN!! i've yet to start on cleaning my room. y'all might think that "nahhh its okay, its not tat bad.." WELL ITS FREAKING BAD!! pictures will prove it!


the shelf, desk and window..


the amount of dust and dog hair build up.. and that's just under the desk, many more around the place


cloths that are suppose to be in the wardrobe.. but noooooooooooooo, their on a stool!@#$%^


yes my shoes are in my room... and the dust is also collecting on them!! and bedsheets are in a paper bag -.-


and finally the wardrobe!!!

yesyes i agree i live in a pig sty, but the thing is... its alr so dirty thats why all the more i'm bloody lazy to clean it! SHIT THERE IS A DISORDER!!! SHIT SHIT DONT TELL ME I HAVE IT!!! OH NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

finally i'm back to update! heh. today was a horrible tumbling day.. bad bad tumbling day for me, maybe it was cause i didn't do my "it's gonna be a good tumbling day for me!!" thing. haiz. really bad! nvm next training will be better!!!! I CAN DO IT!! HAH!! okay so today was a side of dion i've never seen before mang! it was scary, and tense and really very stressfull for me. i think i can't take it when my coaches are like stressed up, but the good think was it really kept his calm. i mean he had every right to act the way he did, but he was still calm and didn't flare up like some people would. he stress = ME STRESS! heh. i tried to catch up and all, i think i did a fairly good job BUT still not good enough! it has to be perfect! we can't afford to look sloopy!

yah on a brighter side, managed to watch MAMA MIA and house bunny during the week. it was awesome shit mang! not like OMG AWESOME SHIT! but it was funny la.. heh. and as usually this maniac had to burst out laughing and get noticed by the whole cinema =D. house bunny is a really bimbotic show mang! but damn did we have to watch it with teens who have huge amounts of testosterone, cat calls non-stop man! *roles eyes* at them -.-. mama mia was jsut loads of sing-a-longs i guess... heh. tmr is going to be a dreadful day.. CLEAN MY ROOM DAY =(..... after mths and mths of procrastination, its time i get down to it. =(

oh this yrs hari raya to me wasn't as fantastic as '05 when i really tuned in to the malay stations and listen to all the songs with diana.. anyways couple of links for photos of whats been happening.. too many to up load. heh.

WET WET SENTOSA with magnum

MOONCAKES, LANTEN, SPARKLERS

hey friends. its been a long time. heh. and a lazy one too =P. anyways there won't be photos on this LJ for sometimes =( i stupidly went to reformat my external hard drive when the intend was to actually reformat my laptop!! stupid me. NEHNEH POK!!!!!!

yah and now mommy is like back in brunei AGAIN! and so i'm going to be motherless for 1week. how fun is tat?! NOT!!!! kids if u think not having your parents around is a fun thing, well WAKE UP CALL!! IT IS DEFINITELY NOT FUNNNNNNN!! don't you ever EVER make such a wish! she really doesn't know how much i miss and love her la. but oh wells i hate to express my feelings to her too. works both ways i guess.

anyways on a lighter note, i managed to catch a show bout Florence Nightingale the one who founded nursing and made it into what it is now. and man am i touched! just very sad that somehow i look at nursing today, not every nurse (including myself) is like her as compassionate and willing to go to such an extend for a patient =(. if only i have a heart like hers, or in fact if all the nurses were like her (not all are).. i guess i just have to give it my best!!

hey hey. back again after along time of hibernation =D. everything's been great i guess, but i've been better la! heh. my grades are pretty sucky(well whats new), and i just want to dance, just want to train for cheer, and i just want to tumble!!! in short, i just need more trainings. soon soon =D.

currently over at gramp's place helping her with her bowel prep, she's got OGD and colonoscopy tmr. so gotta bowel prep. heh. nono for those who are wonder from all the gory stories i'v been sharing, its not tat bad! heh. its just her taking oral fleet at certain timing. not the rectal fleet! heh!
( just for laughs to end of this post =D )

looking forwards to training!!! pretty excited for the upcoming events and things are to come =D

wad up its been quite sometimes huh? heh. have been on attachment thats why i haven't been posting(whats new huh?! lol.). have been attached to ward 36 this time round and the best part is i finally get to work with my group mates(hmmm. not sure if that's a good thing for them and i....) and not people i don't know, well other than the Yr1s, accelerated students and stuff la. duh.

so what can i say 'bout this posting? nerve racking, tiring, lost of emotions involved, etc...?(hmmmm.. trying to think of what to put in..) well to start of being on this posting i've seen myself progress a level up as a student nurse and my skills seem to be better? or so they say la. heh. colleges tell me that "chao on" 'bout my work and i'm moving at a fast pace. no "dilidali-ing" for me.. though i sometimes feel that it's not a good thing =p. and my juniors that are attached to me, well lets say one is good the other well... SPEECHLESS! and if u all want to know ones a china girl, the other a malay girl. AND NOOOOO. the china girl is the one who is much better (though still EXTREMELY BLUR!)compared to the malay girl. who in my opinion will suffer in her second posting. and she needs an attitude change towards learning man!

hmmm. i've also grown more attached to my patients and seeing them leave after a whole week of taking care of them really has its' good side and its' bad side. the best part of it all is when your patients tell you that you simply bring joy to them and that they are very happy to see you everyday =D. and that you are gentle and a good student nurse =).

i just feel that i know where i'm suppose to go alr, just not sure of which area i want to be in.. to work with kids or A&E. hmmmm.. nursing dilemma. then again its really not my choice its where the head of the hospital wants to place me =(. on another note, i might be dropping from all my ministry areas to go into this community/ some health related areas for my service to HIM.. just not sure.. anyhos, i just want to be a good nurse! who cares if i suck in my theory, i'm a fast learner in this area. i bet i can pick up very well and fast!!! (cheyyyyyy, positive thinking manggg.. lol!!)

p:s. sry no photos this time.. tooooooooooooooooo manyyyy and too lazy =p.

oaky exams are over, NDP's over, no more DENVERS training on sats... now my sats are pretty empty D= i haveto like find things to do. sighz. i actually have la, but i think i'm tooo lazy to getting down to do it. lol. so guess wat i'm doing now?! lol.

i'm like creating photo albums on facebook cos i haven paid for my flicker acct. so i cant use it, meaning they confiscated a lot of my photos D=.. ohwells.. lets see how long i'll last doing it! lol. i have 0 patience pls!!

btw.. something interesting to me. heh.




i always thought that the railway track at bukit timah was not in use till i saw that!! i was so excited la. lol..

HELLO FRIENDS!!!! sorry for the long absence from this LJ! heh. exams been a killer!!! and wats gonna be a killer are the photos! heh... so far everything seems gd i guess? other then the exams la! heh..

i wont be writing much, so let the photos speak instead of me =D

( it says..... )

hows everyone been lately? good? well if you're having exams like me, i doubt you'd be good =P.. for those who started uni, DON'T COMPLAIN! =D.. anyways been heading over to NP like almost everyday now, practically my new home. lol. i don't even go over to NYP to study. heh. but yes. been going over to NP to study with my cheer mates, can't seem to let them go huh. they can't seem to let ME go! lol. so sad its going to end soon. but shan't think 'bout it, take it one step at a time.. lol. EMO MUCH!! heh.

anyways jiawei's doing his root canal soon! tat poor boy, scare like shit man.. lol. complains and complains of the pain. heh. but i don't blame him la. not everyone like me got high pain tolerance. sides when i was in primary school, i was shit arse scared of the dental clinic la!! LOL! so yah u can see lives pretty boring much!!! heh.

oh and its going to be official next week. i'm in DECS ALL STARS! a new cheer team that will defiantly bring cheer to the next level! thanks to my new coach, i'm getting back my backtuck!!! and i clocked in 8 last training.. like 7 short from the others cos, 1. i still had the phobia after what happen back in DENVERS! and 2. i had to get use to a new technique.. but it'll be good. i'm just scared of the people there. heh. obvious reasons. heh. i just pray i'll/ it'll turn out fine! =D apparently i have no aches from the training! heh.. where as everyone else does=D lol.

andra a.k.a superman this is for you! lol. i totally forgot 'bout this guy when thanking and talking bout all the people i worked with during the 2mths over at MF. heh. anyways this guy really helped me a lot in my flying! he allowed me to perform stunts and skills that i never got to do when i want in DENVERS.. it's just really sad that we might not have the chance to work together after all, was really looking forward to it... THANKS BRO!!

it was an exciting and funny night =D